"Frustration is the wet nurse of violence."
--David Abrahansen
I'm sure I'm using that quote out of context but I'm so frustrated I could physically harm myself!
I've been dashing about all day for various reasons and eventually parked myself in front of the computer to get some work done (for writing.) And what? Everything is crap. Yep. Crap.
I don't know what's wrong with me today but all I'm currently able to produce is garbage and fertilizer.
John D. Brown taught a principle called "farmers faith" during the conference this weekend. It's the idea that "if you throw crap on the garden of your mind, things will grow." Well, apparently I'm in for a huge harvest then because I'm just spewing crap all over the page. (Seriously though, John Brown rocked.) I'm trying to do like he said and exercise a little faith that even though it sucks right now, I'm getting stuff out and the ideas are flowing and I can go back and make it better later.
But it's hard.
I'm so mad at myself I could...well, I have no idea! That's the problem! And I have set a major deadline for myself. (One that I can't shrug off. Really.)
If any of you have ideas about how to clear the field of crap, please let me know. Meanwhile, I guess I'm back to make like a newborn and dirty some diapers.
7 comments:
Pray? I don't know. So often I throw a whole lot of junk in my own mind. So I'm not too good for advice...
Sorry. Some days are like this. You'll feel more inspired soon, I'm sure.
How about this...
I was so happy to turn on the computer and see you had posted today. I read it, felt like someone else out there had a day like mine, and I felt way better for it. I even cracked a grin, which is saying somehting.
To clear the crap. Wipe. That's the best I've got for you. Wipe it away and start fresh tomorrow.
Love,
me
Thanks Heather. You're always so kind. =]
Homesteading, I laughed my butt off! That was a GREAT comment! Ha, ha, ha!
I hate days like that but it is true that something good will come out of it. (I suppose this is not the time to say that I wrote 3,900 words on Miss D Two today? I don't know, it could be crap, too. Maybe I'm just used to the odor and just can't tell . . ) But really, I am dying to know what this writing deadline is and why you can't shrug it off. If you can tell, email me at the usual (I wanted to say ush as in short for usual but how the heck does one spell that so it sounds like it looks? Inquiring minds want to know!)
Back when I used to write... which was quite some time ago, I used to keep a notebook or a junk folder on the computer and I would use them to start every session. I would just start jotting down whatever was in my head (fertilizer... and S*@T TONS of it) and usually it would get me rolling and help me to get into the right frame of mind to get writing.
It worked for me.
I have to tell you I always want to reply to your comments on the EO. Maybe you don't want your email address included in your profile, but if you are OK with it, you can add it to your profile and then people can hit reply to your comments (I receive mine via email and if the address is included I can hit reply and respond to what you've said.) I totally get it if you'd like to NOT share your email, but I thought I'd let you know just in case you didn't know :) Either way, I want you to know I SO appreciate you and your visits and kind words. It's very nice to be understood. Thank you!
Ah there is no rage that flares hotter in me than feeling frustrated with myself! It makes me homicidal. The best way to clear my head that I've found is to walk away. Literally. Hiking in the mountains is the most restorative practice I can offer. That, and prayer. I've prayed my way out of all kinds of creative block. (He is, well, the Creator after all. I almost feel too indulgent when I access that power.)
Best of luck--
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